Today is a tough day.

For those of you who don't remember, Sarah was pregnant last year.  Her pregnancy ended at 7 weeks 4 days when she had a miscarriage.  Today was her due date.  She's having a rough week, thinking about what could have been.  It's been made worse by the fact that two of her cousins have had or are about to have baby boys this month.  She's really struggling and of course, I am too.  I hurt for her like you wouldn't believe.  I know she's hurting and not being able to make it better for her is killing me.  This is a boo boo that I can't kiss away.

Even though it wasn't an ideal time for her to get pregnant and she wasn't in what I would consider an ideal relationship, it still hurts.  I know that one day she'll have a healthy pregnancy and I'll have my first grandchild to dote on and love, but this first sweet baby will forever be in our hearts and will always be the first.

I love you Sarah, today, tomorrow, forever!